My name is Caroline, and I’m a healthy bitch! An entertainment business manager by day, I’m a multidisciplinary artist at heart, and am health- and fitness-obsessed!
People often ask, “what’s with the name ‘Healthy Bitch’?” When I was in college I read a book called “Skinny Bitch” about an extremely restrictive diet that basically tells you how to eat if you want to be skinny. While the book played a huge part in changing my habits, ultimately being skinny isn’t always healthy. Over many years of research, trial and error, and my own experiences, I have come up with a lifestyle that – overall – is healthiest for me. Does that mean I’m as skinny as possible? Nope, but I’m physically healthy enough, my emotional state is strong, my mental state is solid, I feel great in my own skin, and most importantly, my lifestyle is maintainable for me.
Growing up, I was fortunate enough to have health-conscious parents who raised me to lead a generally healthy lifestyle from a very early age. Between my dad being a former college athlete and lifelong tennis player, my mom and step-dad being runners and mostly-clean eaters, and my step-mom being a vegetarian and hot yoga empire owner, healthy living is deep-rooted in me.
That said, I’ve had my battles. I have struggled with my self image for as long as I can remember. Low self esteem and symptoms of anxiety and depression have shadowed me since I was born, affecting many aspects of my life. Eventually these traits consumed me.
At my lowest points, I have been so depressed that I would sleep as late as possible just to make the days end sooner, so insecure I was paranoid about every relationship in my life, and so sensitive that I experienced borderline bipolar mood swings. At times, almost anything was a trigger, and nothing seemed worth riding out the rest of life for. This resulted in physical health ailments such as high blood pressure, bad skin, unbalanced hormones, and lethargy. For a few years, I even went through various anti-depressants but ultimately decided they aren’t for me, and was lost somewhere between wanting to beat it on my own, and losing hope that would ever be possible. I lost control of myself and became so desperate that my only choice was to change.
With my health influences, I knew all the right steps to take, I just wasn’t taking them. Anytime I was at a low point my dad always asked, “Are you hydrated? Have you been exercising? Are you well-rested?” And almost every time, the answer to all of those questions was “no”.
So I started with the basics: hydrating and becoming more aware of what I eat, exercising regularly, and forming better sleeping habits. The yogi in me also consciously decided to not let anything in my past or out of my control affect me anymore, letting go of anything feeding my negativity. It was behind me, I couldn’t change the past, so I let myself move on.
In a short period of time, my self confidence improved, my anxiety levels decreased incredibly, and not only did I not feel depressed, I actually felt overwhelmingly happy. I was able to appreciate the opportunities ahead of me, and find the motivation to take advantage of them. In a matter of weeks, I had done a complete 180, and the “old” me seemed like a distant, unfamiliar past life. Now, I finally have mental clarity, emotional stability, and physical strength, and I’ve even been off of all prescription medications for several years now. I have control of my life again and haven’t looked back, and my pursuit of the healthiest-possible lifestyle is now a passion.
From time to time, I certainly still have my up and downs — that’s just human. Life happens, and it’s not always good, happy, and fair. But it does always go on, and adopting a healthier lifestyle makes it a whole lot easier to pick myself up, dust myself off, and keep moving forward when life kicks me down.
With this blog, I hope to inspire those who want to make their overall health a priority, and provide resources to help them make it happen. The most important thing about being healthy is that there is no quick fix. It has to be your lifestyle. As my dad always says, “No one will take better care of you than you.”